22. Spasm: The Invisible Puppeteer’s Tricks (2): During My Self-Transfer


22.1    Hip Swinging Dance

My self-transfer from manual wheelchair to bed
is like performing a stationary
bouncing and hip swinging dance.

Wheelchair closest to bed.
Right wheel diagonally to mattress.601_19_ ff_till_sang_mediumplus
Feet firmly on the floor.
Right hand gripping onto mattress edge.
Left fist on wheelchair seat cushion.

Leaning my upper body forward,
I lift up my buttocks
from the cushioned wheelchair seat,
just in front of the wheel,Transfer_wheelchair
to swing them towards the mattress.

before my transfer is completed,
he stiffens my right leg,
and throws my left leg up,
nearly ejecting me out of the wheelchair.

My hip swinging dance
has become a front kick dance.

Has he become impatient or aggressive?
Or is he helping me to dance?

22.2  Monkey Bars of Different Heights 

My toilet to wheelchair self-transfersMpppTrnsfrPersptv2 Step 1 (2)
is going uphill sideways.

Wheelchair besides toilet bowl.
Right hand on handrail on the wall.
Left hand on wheel and rim.
Feet firmly on the floor
between wheelchair and toilet bowl.

I lift my buttocks off the soft, padded toilet seat,
move them over the wheel,
aiming at the lined wheelchair seat.

he straightens my lifeless legs,
glides the heels forward on the floor,
leaving my long arms
hanging on monkey bars of different heights.
He nearly glides my body
down onto the floor
in front of the toilet bowl.

Is he trying to make me perform
some tricky hip hop dance?

The Invisible Puppeteer’s unpredictable tricks.

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Wheelchair to Bed Transfer. Picture taken, with permission, from

Wheelchair to Bed Transfer. Picture is ‘developed by the University of Washington Center for Technology and Disability Studies and reproduced here with their permission’, taken from

Wheelchair beside Toilet. Picture by K A Tan of Penang, Malaysia,
copyright free, taken from his Blog at

A Girl on Monkey Bars. Photo by Nesnad.
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21. Neuropathic Pain in MY Feet (2): Ice and Fire



Sometimes, my twin feet do not talk to each other.
The left is flat, pale and wrinkled,
like an old, dried-up yellow passion fruit –
but warm to touch.
The right is puffy, ruddy like a cooked beetroot –
but cold to touch,
like a chilled raw eggplant, from heel to toes.


Sometimes, my feet are identical twins:
so icy to touch, no woollen socks
or massage can warm them.
And yet, deep inside,
a fire rages along every nerve, crackling
sparks I cannot hear or see;
a downpour of rain needles hits every nerve
but cannot extinguish the fire.

They slowly blush reddish and blotchy
like slow-moving lava
bubbling its way to sea.
When elevated in bed,
the landscape changes:
their visible veins become rivers
deep down in the dark ravines
in sandy terrain.1024px-ISS-35_Great_Sandy_Desert_northwestern_Australia



Ice and fire:
altered sensations
signalled from a damaged spinal cord.




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 Wrinkled Brown Passion Fruit.
Photo by Till Westermayer from Freiburg, Germany,
CC A-SA 2.0 Generic License. via- http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Wrinkled_brown_passionfruit.jpg

Preserved Beetroot. Photo by Fae. CC A-SA 3.0 Unported License. via-

Eggplant. Photo by Horst Frank. CC A-SA 3.0 Unported License. via- http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Aubergine.jpg

Ice and Fire. Photo by Boaworm. ” Overview of the 2nd fissure on Fimmvörðuháls, close to Eyjafjallajökull, as the lava flows down towards the north, turning snow into steam. 2-4-2010.”  CCA 3.0 Unported License.

Active Lava Flow, Etna. Photo by Romgiovanni at it.wikipedia.
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River Lakes in Sandy Desert, Australia.
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A Volcanic Eruption in Iceland.
Photo by Ulrich Latzenhofer from Perchtoldsdorf, Österreich.
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