16. Neuropathic Pain in my Buttocks: Sitting on a Pointed Rock




Ever since that fateful day in February 2004,
even sitting on an air-cell based cushion
is like sitting on a pointed rock
that pierces deep into the nerves
around my right sitting bone,
thinly wrapped by immobilised hip muscles.

Sometimes, it is like a sharp knife
repeatedly stabbing my right buttock;
or a pointed screw
drilling into my right sitting bone,
sending pain currents
across the buttocks,
the calves, the thighs,
and the whole legs.

Persistent piecing, stabbing, drilling,
day and night:
while sitting in wheelchair,
lying on soft latex mattress or
pressure reduction air mattress;
lying on my back and
lying on my right or left side.

Chronic neuropathic pain
Damaged nerves


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Pointed Rock.  ‘Shard’ Cliff Face, east of Slea Head, Ireland.
Photo by Pam Brophy. CC AS-A 2.0 Generic License, via –

15. Neuropathic Pain in My Feet (1): Burning, Tightly Bound


15.1  Burning Feet524px-Brita_kettle

My red swollen feet burn
like the heating coil
inside a boiling kettle,
building up heat,
till the heels jerk
with cutting pain!



15.2  Tightly Wrapped Foot

My left foot is like a rice dumpling
tightly wrapped with bamboo leaves
and tied with a strong string
cutting deep
my skin, soft sole, and bone.

It burns like a swollen, cooked dumpling
with the rice and beans inside wanting
to burst through the bamboo leaves.

Trying to loosen up the strings
the foot protests in spasm.



15.3  Bound feet

My feet are very tightly bound
with long cloth laced with warm coarse sand:
Burning inside and outside,
yet numb to touch on the surface.

Was that how my ancient sisters felt
in their little, forcibly bound feet?





 15. 4  Beautiful Feet

How beautiful my feet are this morning!
Not patchy
No botchy redness
No fluid retention
Wrinkled toes
Flat and skinny
with clearly visible veins and arches.
Like they used to be not long ago.
Where are my beautiful, slim-line Italian shoes?



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An Electric Kettle in Use. Photo by Lee J. Hayward. In public Domain, via-http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Brita_kettle.jpg

Bamboo Leaf Rice Dumplings. Zongzi.  Photo by Koika.
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Bound Feet of a Chinese Lady (Die verkrüppelten Füße einer vornehmen Chinesin. (1911). Photo by Albert Friedenthal. In public domain, via –

A Slim-Line Shoe. Photo by JHCompany. CC0 Public Domain License, via –

14. Spasm: The Invisible Puppeteer’s Tricks (1): While I am Sitting in my Wheelchair — Drumming, Bending, Swinging, Undulating

120px-Ssantanandorra_(6), Phot by Rivernavigatoro .

14.1  Snare Drum Rhythm

While I am sitting in my wheelchair,
The Invisible Puppeteer turns my feet into sticks, drums them alternately on my footplate,
like the slow snare drum rhythm of Ravel’s Bolero.

Sometimes, he turns my feet into mallets,
to beat heavily on the footplate.
Or even violently:
an avant-garde leg thrown up and
dropped off the footplate.

Sometimes, bending my knees,
he jerks the whole leg up
to nearly throw me forward
off the wheelchair.

The Invisible Puppeteer’s usual tricks .


14.2  Vertical Pendulum


In my shower commode I sit for a morning shower.
He bends my left leg forward and backward,
turning it into a vertical pendulum.
The big toe bob hits the tiled wall in front, repeatedly, uncontrollably.
Its nail becomes black and wrinkled,
gradually, unsuspectingly.

At the edge of the soft latex mattress I sit
with legs down against the side.
Suddenly, he straightens my right leg up,
then drops it back,
rapidly, repeatedly,
to perform a sitting cancan dance.
It only stops with my intervention;
and then to start all over again.

The Invisible Puppeteer’s playful tricks .


14.3  Rope Suspension Bridge

Very slowly and gently,
but irritatingly persistently,
the whole day long:

he lifts the right buttock up and drops it;
then flaps the thigh up and down,
turning it into a rope bridge
suspended over a river:
swinging, undulating,
trying to settle, slowly,
like an over-stretched rope
taking its time to unwind.

The Invisible Puppeteer’s new tricks .




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Snare Drum and Sticks. Photo by Rivernavigator.
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Pendulum Animation   Author: hubert.christiaen at telenet dot be.
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The Carrick-a-Rede Rope Bridge, a rope suspension bridge near Ballintoy, County Antrim, Northern, Ireland. Photo by Shiraz Chakara.
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