This is an introduction to the topics I will be writing about in more detail, to share. [Numbers in square brackets refer to the posts listed on the right and on the Archives/ Home Page.]
An Irreversibly and Drastically Changed Life
Back in 2004, a ‘simple’ biopsy operation of an accidentally MRI-detected spinal cord tumour  performed by an eager neurosurgeon unexpectedly resulted in ‘incomplete paraplegia’ , making me permanently ‘wheelchair bound’ [02, 10.]. It also resulted in the sudden onset of frequently excruciating chronic neuropathic pain  and the sudden onset of spasm on the left side of my body ; the right leg no longer moves or spasms.
An irreversibly, drastically changed life with a colossal and complex condition to manage: permanent disability, chronic neuropathic pain, spasm, cancer. Forced retirement with no regular income against huge expenses. House bound.
I was suddenly plunged into a completely new, unknown world in which I must learn to survive, to cope with, to manage, to transcend, to excel [32, 35]. It has been a steep learning curve and a long and challenging journey.
Spinal Cord Tumour
An Astrocytoma, Grade II, in my spinal cord: growing slowly,
not operational, not removable, not treatable, incurable! 
A time-bomb ticking.
“Spinal cord tumour patients live very long!”, said the Oncologist.
Which means I am on a long haul with prolonged suffering!
Yes, it has been 14 and a half years now! How much longer?
Chronic Neuropathic Pain
After I eventually woke up from the anaesthetics for the biopsy operation on that fateful day in February of 2004, I felt strange new sensations in my lower body ! Constant busting, scrunching, crackling, flickering, sparkling inside my whole lower body: buttocks , thighs [04, 07, 12, 27], especially calves and feet [07, 08, 15, 21]. I asked the Neurosurgeon what it was; he said he didn’t know. I later learned from a social worker working with spinal injury patients that it is incurable, unstoppable chronic neuropathic pain! So excruciating, almost unbearable! Eventually, the pain and sensations extended slowly from my lower body [12, 13, 15, 16, 21, 24, 27] upwards towards the upper body [17, 19, 24, 26, 33]. Fourteen and a half years later, it has now reached my neck and shoulders , arms , hands, fingertips. Chronic pain all over my body. [13, 20, 23, 25, 26, 34]
Pain management immediately after the biopsy surgery merely involved a daily intake of 8 Panadol tablets, prescribed by the Neurosurgeon, which was absolutely useless! Later, an initially low dosage of Gabapentin, an anti-convulsion drug found to be useful for neuropathic pain, was prescribed by a rehabilitation specialist. It didn’t always help! Eventually, I have developed my own pain management approach and strategies.
Spasm started on the left side of the body 3 days after the biopsy operation  and later extended to the right side . Sometimes, gentle and quiet; sometimes, strong and violent. As if manipulated by an invisible puppeteer , who likes to play tricks on me! [14, 22, 28]
I had to spend nearly 3 months in rehabilitation. Somehow, I couldn’t get into the spinal injury department. I was transferred from the surgery ward in the hospital I walked in to a rehab-geriatric ward in another hospital, from which I wheeled home . There, the rehabilitation specialist, physiotherapists, occupational therapists, and social worker didn’t believe that I would ever stand or walk again and therefore had only the sole aim of training me to lead my life as a ‘competent disabled’, using my hands to wheel myself around and to lift and move my body in self transfers  between wheelchair and bed, toilet, shower commode, or another seat (if safe).
I proved them wrong! Before I left the ward, I did stand up to get things from the cupboard above while holding onto the bench top.
Managing My Chronic Neuropathic Pain, Disability, Spasm, Illness, Social Isolation.
Not only do I have to cope with and manage my chronic neuropathic pain, spasm and illness, but I also have to live my remaining life as a disabled in a house not built for a wheelchair user . The permanent loss of the freedom of mobility is a great physical inconvenience in a world exclusively designed and built predominantly for walkers. Greater still is the psychological loss of independence: having to depend on carers and helpers for essential assistance, resulting in the loss of privacy.
Chronic neuropathic pain, spasm, illness, disability, dependence, old age: all add up together equals to social isolation. [11, 30.2, 31]
Facing all my difficulties, problems, challenges up front [35, 36], I have developed, over the years, practices and strategies to cope with my multiple impediment, but it doesn’t get any easier as I age.
Sharing and Exchanging
I now share these practices and strategies here with fellow wheelchair users, chronic neuropathic pain sufferers, care providers, healthcare practitioners, pain management professionals and practitioners, physiotherapists, other medical professionals, and anyone interested in knowing how one person manages her chronic pain, disability, illness, and her unexpectedly, permanently changed lifestyle.
Your feedback, comments, exchanges will be most welcome.
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